Photography by Rebecca Sigala Photography
We have so many words we can share about this raw and real session with Rebecca Sigala Photography, but when we read what this beautiful woman pictured had to say about her session, we figured we would let her do the talking.
"I've been following Rebecca's work for quite some time. Always elegant, always sensual, always serene. I knew I wanted to be captured through Rebecca's lens, a lens where I was calm, a lens where I was soft and vulnerable, a lens where I knew, at the very least, something resembling beauty would be handed back to me.
"I was nervous when I started my session. As many photos as I take, as familiar as I was with Rebecca's posing instructions, I'm not comfortable in front of the camera. However, being familiar with Rebecca's work, I let go of any and all expectations and trusted her completely. I knew that no matter what happened she would do her best to capture what I so badly wanted to know was real, and that she did.
"While attempting to sum up my experience, I reviewed some of Rebecca's older posts and I kept seeing a reappearing theme. 'I kept staring at the photos and could not believe it was me.
"So many women, myself included, struggling to believe that this was them. Confident, comfortable, sexy. Why was this so difficult? When I saw photos of people I knew or recognized in Rebecca's work, not once did I ever think, 'These photos don't look anything like this person.', rather, with awe I goggled over Rebecca's talent for capturing the sweet and sensual parts of her subject, the parts of our friends and loved ones that are typically only seen in flashes. The flash of a sheepish smile, the flash of a fluttering eyelash as a handsome stranger walks by, the flash of confidence as an entire group of people laugh at your joke. And yet, Rebecca and Sheldon worked at what they are so good at, not just capturing a person but rather a storm. Each photo was a flash of lightning in a thunderstorm and there I was; vulnerable, attractive, and confident.
"Yet, as I looked over my photos, struck with joy and surprise and confusion, I thought, 'This can't be me.'
"Every woman I know has some sort of trauma with their appearance. In a society where we are as valuable as our sex appeal, how can you not?
"I have friends who were taught to place all their value on beauty, and beautiful as they are, aging and the toll of being alive are their greatest fear. And, of course, I have my own personal experiences of being bullied for not being beautiful enough. As difficult as my experiences were, you can't trade pain for different pain. So, as much as I've placed my personal efforts and agendas on human kindness, there is a collective and eternal woman cry, soft as it may be, 'am I pretty enough?' And as the comments came rolling in with compliments I've never heard before, I sat back in fear and amazement at what was so hard for me to accept because, is this really me and does it matter?
"I know there is so much more to life than beauty, and I truly feel blessed with much respite from much of female societal expectations. Maybe it's a cop-out due to fears of what I could never be. Maybe it's the healthiest attitude one can take. However, as I age, as I change -- I know these photos will stand as a testament to what we all secretly know is true. My body is perfect because it works in the ways I need it to. My eyes are filled with love and curiosity. I have known desire. And as time moves forward and I fade into the framework of history herself, I can rest assured that my insecurities have been based on nothing, and I am comparable to no one."